Monday, October 17, 2011

Updates an shiz, yeah

Boy, sure is blog neglect up in here.  Gotta get that "every friday update" going again, fo sho.

How can I do that?

Because I have some big announcements coming up.  It's gonna be the tits.

Sunday, September 4, 2011


Sup, internet?  I've been busy lately, which I would say is a good thing.

I'm a Supermod / unofficial Administrator of a website that promotes freedom of speech and freedom of information.  The website is  It's one of the three major offshoots from the original TOTSE that closed in 2009.  I've spent the past half hour enabling SSL on the site (as it currently doesn't support it), and will be doing the same for the IRC as well.  After this, I'll be working on a promotional campaign to bring in new members.

Second thing I've been working on, is content for my own site.  I have several things I'd like to do with it, one of which is teach people about the coming technological advancements that's going to shape our future.  The main reason this needs to be brought up, is that we're not ready for it.  Plain and simple.  We're on the verge of astounding new tech that in the hands of the greedy, will make life more difficult for most.  It's a future that we need to avoid, and for us to benefit from it, we must not continue down our current paths.  We're preparing to enter a new age - with new ideas, and we can't simultaneously hold on to a selfish worldview and help all of mankind.

Third, is a neat little project.  In an older post, I mentioned electric gloves that I built.  When charged, they will deliver an electric shock to anything unlucky enough to be in the way of your fist.  Another thing I have lying around is some home made body armor.  It won't stop a bullet or blade, but it's fantastic against blunt attacks.  I had a friend break a chair over my back while wearing it, without injury.  So, what am I doing?  I'm combining and improving them both.  The new armor will contain metal plating, which will stop blades and tasers, and will house a couple UPS batteries, an inverter, and run 120v to the improved gloves.  This will allow for more power more often.  If I am feeling up to it, I may also install some fans of some sort, to make the armor cooling as well.

So this is what I've been doing.  Look forward to your comments below!

Friday, August 19, 2011


All the time.  It's not the best.

It is just shy of 6pm here, and I'm in bed, ready to fall asleep.  I'm hoping that ~14 hours of sleep will fix this.  So no updates on any projects or anything.  I've been toying with Metasploit again as of late, but I haven't really learned anything besides how to use the program.  Started playing guitar semiregularly again, so that's something.  I just really don't feel like doing anything.  Been neglecting this blog, and haven't been checking other's for this whole week - starting tomorrow, I'm hoping to pick this back up.

Hope you all are doing well.  Goodnight.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Donating plasma screwed up my arm...

Two weeks ago today, I went to donate plasma at a healthcare center that specializes in plasma.  Long story short, they screwed up my arm.  It's been bruised and sore ever since - I really hope nothing was permanently damaged.

Does anyone else donate blood / plasma?  I'm lucky enough to go to a place that reimburses you for your time - I can make as much as $50 a week doing it.  I haven't for the past two, since my arm's been bruised and sore, but I'm looking forward to starting it up again.  Nothing like helping people, even if you can't get anything back out of it :)

Saturday, August 6, 2011

I'll never forget - that minute, that second.

There are quite a few things in my life that I take for granted.  Things I've realized or been told that at the time, really had a "Wow" effect on me.  The details of each span many a subject, and I can't even begin to describe them all here.  But the ones that are really resonating with me right now (interesting thought on that in another paragraph) are that from an anime series called Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann.  Everyone that I know that has watched has came away with the same thoughts - AWESOME.  MANLINESS.  WILLPOWER.  Generally a combination of all three.  I'm going to tell you about the show, because it is much more relevant that most people realize.  It's the story of a man who has yet to realize his destiny.

Simon is a boy that lives in an underground village.  The village chief has him (and quite a few others) dig daily to expand the village.  However, no matter how much they dig, one day, the ceiling will collapse and kill them.  It was a certainty of living underground.  A rebellious youth named Kamina tells Simon of a surface world, where people live without ceilings.  The chief tells them that there is no surface.  Due to a major plot point (a giant mecha crashing through the ceiling into the village) they're able to escape, only to find the surface full of creatures called Beastmen.  They pilot Mechas and kill any humans that make it to the surface.  I'm not going to get in to the nitty gritty of this, but most people see the main conflict of the story as their fight against them - which is understandable.  Kamina has an unbreakable willpower to fight against them - and every case I've seen of people watching this series, it's always made a huge impact on them.

Spoiler alert time!  Middle of the show.  It was discovered that a man named Lordgenome aka "The Spiral King" created the Beastmen to contain the world's population.  Why, is unknown at this point.  After the defeat of the Beastmen, The Spiral King, and his generals (Thymilph, Cytomander, Guame, and Adiane) they build a giant city for mankind to live on the surface.  After the population reaches 1 million, a new enemy appears - the only information they know is that they are highly advanced, and call themselves "Antispirals".  Humanity creates new technology to combat them, but ultimately, the antispirals have a superweapon capable of destroying all life on the earth, so humanity must take the fight to them, in space.

Spoiler alert number two!  Fast forward to the end of the series.  It is discovered who the antispirals are.  They were once humans, who feared that technology was advancing much too quickly, and that it would be the cause of not only humanity's destruction, but the destruction of the universe as well.  They violently fought against humanity (aka spirals) to suppress their will to create.

There is a recurring theme in this show, of "Spirals".  Most people equate the "Spiral Energy" that the mechas operate on as meaning manliness, but it was always much more symbolic than that.  Even in the beginning, when Simon was just a digger, his Drill would slowly work through any obstacle that he put before it.  With each revolution, he'd make little gains, until suddenly, he'd be able to break through.  Throughout the series, in a matter of years after humanity first starts living on the surface, their rate of technological advancement increases.  They go from fighting with small guns (a nearby village underground had them in storage) to having higher tech mechanized warriors, to having spaceships, to the last few episodes, where they are required to take inter-dimensional relativistic physics into account in order to properly attack their opponents.  All of their advancements are due to this "Spiral Energy".  This concept is explained in the show briefly, but no one that I know that has watched it has really taken it to heart.

This "Spiral Energy" is not just willpower - it is humanity's spirally-structured DNA.  With each revolution (generation) we'd make little gains, until there was an intelligence explosion, with new technologies.  The humans finally defeated "The Sprial King" and his generals (which if you abbreviate, are TAGC - the same proteins that make our DNA) they were able to rapidly and positively change their future.  In the end, they triumphed over the antispirals, and changed their future into a long, and prosperous one.

What I've been getting at is this.  As of late, the idea that Mankind is capable of improving itself beyond the limits of our slow microevolutions is becoming more and more popular.  It's something that I see as a firm and unstoppable future for us.  It's simply a matter of which future we will build - one that is oppressive by those who are fearful, or a prosperous one.  The first idea of Gurren Lagann was of willpower - that through thick and thin, Humanity was capable of breaking through all obstacles - and isn't that exactly what we've done, as a species?  The second is that we're capable of building a much brighter future for ourselves, and we're already on that path.

I've had this idea in my head for quite some time now, and I must say, it made me LOVE watching this show, and seeing how the Transhumanist ideals were represented in it.  Additionally, I would like to say that it is one of the single most motivating things I've ever watched!  Not even on a transhumanist level, but the passion it fills you with, to excel in everything that you do!  Kamina is probably one of the best role-models ever, even if he is a fictional character.

So that was a lot longer than I expected.  Heh.  So to get back to my first paragraph, the ideas that have been resonating a lot with me recently of Humanity's future, and how we are a spiral race, capable of overachieving beyond what we're currently able to do.  But the future that's in our hands is dynamic, and if we do not make a conscience effort towards a utopia, and let the decisions of the future fall into the hands of those who are greedy or fearful, we will soon enter a state of dystopia.  It is my fear that unless the world as it stands today is changed, we will not make it out on top.  But even now, there is hope for man.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Transhumanism, and our Accelerating Future

First, what is Transhumanism? Transhumanism is the idea that humans have or will have the capability to transcend our biological limitations, and supersede our slow, natural evolution with one guided by our own hands. It's a seminew idea that officially started as it is today around the 1990's. A prominent supporter of this concept is futurist and inventor Ray Kurzweil. He has several books on the topic, the latest being The Singularity is Near: When Humans Transcend Biology. I haven't finished it yet (still working through The Holographic Universe atm), but it's been quite an interesting read thusfar. On the wiki page about the book, it gives a good summary of what it is, and what his predictions about the future are. The books main focuses are as follows:
  • A technological-evolutionary point known as "the singularity" exists as an achievable goal for humanity.
  • Through a law of accelerating returns, technology is progressing toward the singularity at an exponential rate.
  • The functionality of the human brain is quantifiable in terms of technology that we can build in the near future.
  • Medical advancements make it possible for a significant number of his generation (Baby Boomers) to live long enough for the exponential growth of technology to intersect and surpass the processing of the human brain.
For a better idea on exactly how much faster our technological progress is about to get, I'll give you some examples right off the wiki page.
  • 2020's - computers (not components, but whole, functional computers) smaller than 100nm will be possible.
  • 2020's - nano-sized bots will be capable of being injected into the bloodstream, filtering out disease, pollutants, and supplying oxygen/neutrients to cells.
  • Late 2020's - nanotech-based manufacturing will be in widespread use, radically altering the economy as all sorts of products can suddenly be produced for a fraction of their traditional-manufacture costs.
  • late 2020's - The threat posed by genetically engineered pathogens permanently dissipates by the end of this decade as medical nanobots—far more durable, intelligent and capable than any microorganism—become sufficiently advanced.
  • 2030's - Recreational uses aside, nanomachines in people's brains will allow them to greatly expand their cognitive, memory and sensory capabilities, to directly interface with computers, and to telepathically communicate with other, similarly augmented humans via wireless networks.
  • 2030's - Mind uploading becomes possible.
  • 2040's - utility foglets in use.
  • 2040's - Organs are completely replaced by superior cybernetic implants.
  • Want to know how fast things are going to happen after around 2045, according to Kurzweil? Kurzweil predicts that machines will have the ability to make planet-sized computers by 2099, which underscores how enormously technology will advance after the Singularity.
I would like for you to know that Ray Kurzweil has also been accurately predicting many of our technological advancements / inventions since the 1980's. Cool stuff. You can skip the book and get the tl;dr version at this page (it's much shorter than the book, but will still take time to go through):

I'm currently writing a text file on this subject, but am interested in seeing how others feel about this concept. Let us making the discussion, no?

Change how you look at all things, and what you see will change.

I've been stalled more times than I think I care to admit.  Be it on health issues, financial issues, or optimization issues (more to come on that subject in a later post), I've consistently found myself not where I want to be.  I'm not going to get into the nitty gritty in this post, but man, things are not working for me, the way I've been trying them.  So what do I need?  What's my solution to fix my problems?  I don't have the money to eat healthy.  I don't have the energy or ambition to work out.  I DID until I donated plasma the other week, and they fucked up my arm.  I've had a sore arm for the past week, and some wicked bruises.  It's made that much more difficult, though I don't really have an excuse for why I haven't at least been running.  I think I will do that tonight, just to prove a point to myself.  What point do I need to prove?  If I'm going to stand in front of the world and say "I'm going to change you for the better - whether you like it or not" I need to be able to do the same to myself.  I'm out of shape, and though I want to change that, I'm quite resistant to this change.  So I think that is my next goal.  My workout has had no cardio since I started, but I have some great muscles to show off once this layer of fat is off.

So what's my motivation?  Defiance.  I'm saying "fuck you, body" and gonna make it do what I want it to, not what it wants me to do.  I started this post just gonna mope about how rough things have been for me.  You know what?  Fuck that.  Yeah, things have been rough.  So what?  I can't name one legitimate reason why that should slow me down.

Step one:  Get this weight off that's been pissing me off.
Step two:  Pay off these stupid loans that keep me broke.
Step three:  Electronics.  I will know how to build more complex machinery before the end of this year.  I plan on researching schools as well.  After these bills are paid, I'm gonna see what kind of classes I can take to learn things that I can and will use.  Programming and Electrical Engineering are my priorities.

So watch the fuck out, world.  I am great.  I am dangerous.  You think you can keep up with me?  Well, you can't.  Because I am too damn fantastic.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

So, back when I started this blog...

I had mentioned "putting the world in checkmate".  Back then, I had NO IDEA what I'd come up with, only that I would create a plan to save the world.  Since then, I've come up with several steps toward this goal.  I'm currently in the process of determining a suitable domain name for a website for this, as I would like to use that as a quick go-to place for people to learn about what my ideas are, and why it is important.

I know I'm pretty vague on details here, and when I talk to people in person, but they'll just have to deal with it.  All you need to know is that this isn't a passing dream. This isn't one of those "oh man that'd be cool I'm never gonna do this" ideas.  I've spent a lot of time wanting and not doing.  I started a few projects recently, just to prove to myself that I'm capable of finishing what I start.

Now if you'll excuse me, I still have work to do.

Friday, July 22, 2011


First and foremost, before I write a bunch of stuffs, you must stop everything you're doing and check something out.  What is it?  It's GREAT, that's what.  Hosted on, the weekly updated webcomic Great is everything the name implies!  This is the thing you want to click to check it out.

Are you back?  Excellent, because now I will tell you about things in my life.  Some of them are awesome, some are sad, and some are okay I think.

I've finally added cardio to my workout!  This morning I jogged to our fitness center, rode the stationary bike for a while, then walked home.  I am going to do this every day, because that will make me more awesome.

Urban Exploration has been an interest of mine for quite some time.  I've dabbled in Night Ops - which is essentially UE during the night time, with emphasis on stealth - and have started exploring things in the daytime, as well.  There is a tunnel in the town that I reside in, that runs for several blocks - and I have not discovered the end yet.  A new expedition into the tunnels under the streets is in order.  Another thing, is that I found a nifty abandoned building nearby, and it was awesome.  There was some good graffiti and a ton of horrible graffiti.  Eventually, I found a 2'x2' window door thing and climbed in.  This building was full of awesome art!  I spent some time checking out the first floor.  Eventually, I moved upstairs, and suddenly the graffiti stopped, and in its place was a very strong sense of wrongness - it's difficult for me to describe, but the first thing that moved in to my head was "this is not a happy place", and I swiftly left.  It was a good adventure overall.

I wasn't alone on that adventure.  With me was a dear friend of mine, whom I will refer to as Rose.  She and I have been great friends for a long, long time.  She's stayed with me on and off for the past month, and finally took a bus to live in Boston for a few days, before starting her life as a freight kid.  I know she's gonna hop on a train bound for Chicago, if she hasn't already, and from there, she has no plans other than to go wherever.  She was homeless for roughly 6 months on the street of Boston, and made it out alive, so I trust that she'll be okay during this.  It's still unnerving, though.

Facebook is annoying.  I am prepared to shift into maximum overtroll.  I hate people's stupid attention-whoring updates.  I hate the stupid pictures they upload.  And I hate their dumb comments they leave, ESPECIALLY when I make an update, and a comment is some bullshit like "Hey how are you".  WTF is that shit?  If I tell you something in person (doesn't matter what) would you say "Hey, how are you?" to me as a response?  No, dipshit, you wouldn't .  /rant.

On a final note for now, search youtube for "dongs".  The first non-sponsored video should be called "dongs.exe"  Watch it.  It is funny.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Living Securely in a Digital World

I've finished work on the second on what is turning in to a three part paper on computer security, called "Living Securely in a Digital World".  The first part discussed how to keep your computer secure and private from an offline perspective - so that someone sitting in front of your computer will likely not be able to see what you've been doing, or what you have on your computer.  This second one, which was going to be huge, I split into two separate articles.  It's about how to use your computer online, in an age where tracking your personal data and making a mockery of privacy is standard.  Part three will take a little more work, but the two articles together provide tons of information, that most people don't even know.  Check out the article, in the totse2 text files "technology" section of

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Crazy customers are best customers. Also, world domination.

So, I had a lady come in to my computer store recently, and she kept going off about how someone she was doing work for was getting in to her computer and stealing her files. She claimed she knew this because she discovered the administrator account on her computer, through the control panel, and the account had a little yellow car as the icon, - THE SAME ICON THE GUY THAT WAS BREAKING IN WAS USING! /facepalm. I LITERALLY had to spend FOUR FUCKING HOURS with this lady before I could get her to leave. She's probably related to the one that came in to our store a few years ago, saying Al Quida was in her computer, and when I asked her how she knew, I shit you not, she literally said "I CAN SEE THEM IN THERE, COMING IN OVER THE LINES".

I've got to get out of this city.

SPEAKING of this city, which thanks to ADD leads me to... DOCTOR STEELE. He calls himself "Musician, Mad Scientist, and Future World Emperor". He and I share similar goals - and the future he wishes for mankind, a "Utopian playland", is but a stepping stone on the path that I see and will work for. If you're interested in his site, check it out at

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Huff Raidios are GO.

For those of you who don't know, I am a member of a website that promotes free speech, and the sharing of information.  A long-running joke from the site, is where an obviously idiotic new user joined, and asked about how to get high off of household chemicals.  So another user gave him an equally retarded answer - to huff raid.  Since then, the joke of huffing raid has been a staple on our site.  So when the idea of running an internet radio station came up, it didn't take long for us to decide a name - Huff Raidio.

There have been a lot of setbacks, but as of tonight, we're back up in running.  We are currently streaming member-made music, and over the next few days will add content such as lectures, debates, news, how-to articles, and more!  If you're interested in checking it out, go to

Friday, July 8, 2011


July, 2011.

I've long since finished my Anti-complacency article, though it remains unpublished!  I've been putting a lot of time in my first one on Transhumanism.  Essentially, I'm building the case that it is our purpose and destiny to surpass our biological evolution and put the future of mankind into our own hands - even if it means the risk of losing everything we've worked for.  In my Anti-Complacency article, I made the point that we should NEVER let the fear of failure get in the way of our dreams, and the dream of mankind is to change, and improve.  We've been creating new ways to enrich our lives since the first time man created a tool - and improving our own bodies is the epitome of that idea, and it embodies the will of man perfectly.

I've had nothing but problems with launching Huff Raidio - however, I may have a solution!  I'm currently logged in to the totse2 VPS, and testing the shoutcast server software running on that machine - since my home connection doesn't want to host any form of server (because FUCK YOU comcast).  I'm looking forward to having this finally launch!

Another thing I'm working on, is spurring NASA into doing something cool again.  I am working on content for a website to get people involved in letting NASA know that we're not happy with how it's being run.  Why do I care about this?  Because 50 years ago, NASA gave us a "giant leap" for mankind.  Since then, we've put robots on Mars, and then cancelled our manned flight programs!  You missed the point of space travel, NASA!  What the hell are you thinking?!?

So that's an update on what's happening right now!  There is much more, but I'll leave that for next week :)

Also, guaranteed updates every Friday.  Because hell yes.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Things I am working on: May 2011 edition!

I'm still waiting to get the rest of the parts for my gloves, so what am I working on in the meantime?

Text articles!  I'm writing two articles for the good folks at the second Temple Of The Screaming Electron - on similar subjects.  One, being on Anticomplacency - why being content with life is a bad position to be in - and the other being on transhumanism - discussing humanities will to advance, the dangers of doing so, and why it's important that we shouldn't let that stop us.

Non-texts I'm working on!  Huff Raidio, an internet radio show for the Temple (mentioned above!) is kicking back into gear, hopefully by this weekend!  I've started getting help from some other users there on adding content, and it's spurring me into action!  Having help is really the biggest motivator for me for this project.  I'm pretty dang excited about it again.

Additionally, I've decided that I am determined to learn EVERYTHING I CAN about modern telecommunications.  It's something worth knowing, methinks.

So there you have it, folks.  Things I'm working on learning and things I plan on helping others learn with.

More updates to follow!  Will be back before the weekend is up.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Too much to write about.

I could write a ton of stuff for one huge update, or I could write one thing in detail, and have something to post about in a few days, so what do you think imma do?

Robotics has always been a fascination of mine.  I've never tinkered much with electronics or mechanics up until this year.  I own an arduino microcontroller, and soon will own a Teensyusb board.  The teensyusb is cheaper, has more ram, flash ram, and i/o's than the arduino, and has a USB connection, verses the serial, or usb port that acts as serial on the arduino.  In addition, it's MUCH smaller.  I'll be using the Teensyusb controller for some projects of mine, including...


One of the things I've built recently are gloves that deliver an electric shock to any conductive object that is struck with them.  It was a simple circuit for the prototype - I hacked some PCI slot covers from a desktop computer into metal contacts, mounted them on rubber stands, and glued the stands to a glove, on the index and middle finger.  I then wired a lead from one of them to the end of some capacitors, and the other lead to a DPDT switch, which then connected to the caps again.  Another mode on the switch connected the capacitors to a diode bridge, which in turn was wired to a standard two prong power cable, to charge straight from any 120v wall outlet.

I'm going to be doing a LOT more with the next version of the gloves, including higher amperage storage, multiple capacitor banks for multiple shocks, and a gauge  to show power across the cap banks.  Additionally, the prototype looked really ghetto, so I'll be working on making them look less like a mishap and more like a coherently well designed death contraption.

More updates to follow!

An update? On MY blogger?!?

It's more likely than you think.

So, I haven't updated in like, two months.  This is certainly not due to a lack of things to write about.  Quite the contrary!  I've been busy like crazy, and am looking forward to writing a huge update tonight.  Awwyeah.

Friday, March 11, 2011

It's probably time for me to see a doctor.

Well, against what some people I know would call 'better judgment' I decided to have a little experiment yesterday.  Around 12:30 in the afternoon, I took 25mg of Adderall, just to see what it does.  I expected it to give me plenty of energy, similar to when I was taking caffeine pills.  I was a little surprised.

What did end up happening, was after I had a good hour of being moderately energetic (similar to caffeine) I realized it wasn't that I was hyper, it's that I wasn't tired.  I've spent every day for MONTHS being tired.  I haven't had ambition for almost anything; I've been depressed, and I've had terrible memory problems.  Yesterday, I was able to focus on everything I had to do, I wasn't cranky from being tired, I didn't feel fuck-all depressed, and I actually felt good, for the first time in a while.  Taking vitamins has helped, but this... for the past few years, I've been struggling with incessant depression.  Yesterday I felt like how I use to feel.  It was a good feeling.

Ironically, a few days ago, one of my best friends checked herself in to a psych ward.   I have always sworn she and I were pretty much the same person.  She's starting antidepressants and some anti-manic medication today.  I guess I can just add this to the list of way's we're alike...

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Radio killed the internet star

In a little less than a month, I'll be launching my own internet radio station, which will include a several different radio shows.  Discussions will range from the polite and relevant to the obscene and obscure. Politics, humanities, religion, sex, cuisine, weapons, pyrotechnics, drugs, legal and illegal activities, computer and automotive technology, music, the environment, do it yourself projects, and so much more.  I'm in love with information, and I want to share it with as many people as possible.  :thumbsup:

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Things I am working on.

Short term projects:
  • EMP generator.  An EMP is essentially just a quick magnetic flux.  By running a high voltage through a coil, I should be able to create one.  I have a bank of 6x 400v capacitors that I'll be wiring up to a charging circuit a friend drew up for me, and should have a prototype before the end of the week.
  • Create a few how-to guides on some stuff.  I'm part of an online community based on providing and sharing information.  I have a few text files I'm working on.  One needs some refinement, and a couple I'm still researching / planning.  I think I'll post some here once I'm done writing them up, though I may need to check blogger's terms of service again to make sure I'm not going to be violating any agreement.  Some of this stuff can be pretty controversial.
Mid term projects:

  • Internet Radio!  I'm setting up my own station, and have been collecting things to do / share / etc on the station.  This month I'll be ramping up my efforts quite a bit, to meet my tentative launch date of April 1st.

Monday, February 28, 2011

A glorious dawn.

For it being 9:21 in the morning, I feel fantastic.  For the first time in ages, it seems, I'm not tired.  For all the stress that work and a lack of money does to me, things seem great.  It is a pleasant change.

Why?  For one, I got up early, and worked out.  It wasn't much, but stretching and some light exercises does wonders for the body.  I think I will do this every morning.  I've been taking vitamins for the past couple weeks as well, and it's also helped tremendously.  A few weeks ago, everything was getting under my skin, everything stressed me out.  It was terrible.  I think those times are over now.

So, what am I doing.  Right now, with my life.  Currently?  A whole lot of nothing.  I work, I go home, I sleep, I repeat.  It's monotonous, unrewarding, and has little purpose.  By the end of the year I'll have my car paid off, and will be able to actually start saving money.  I do not think I will renew my lease at my apartment.  I like the place, but I don't like paying $800/month on rent.  It's a waste of money, and for someone living in a society so dependent and attached to money, that's a problem.

So, what am I doing.  Right now, with this page.  Currently?   A whole lot of nothing.  Writing.  Keeping track of my thoughts.  At work, when I keep a schedule of my time, I find that I'm much more efficient and productive when I do this.  Maybe this will help me get my life together.  I certainly need to.

I recently wrote up a paper.  I have named it "A Call for Extremism".  I wanted to convince myself with it that there is a purpose to life, and give myself a reason to find out what is worth doing.  What I learned while writing it, is that there is no single thing people can do to do anything great.  Life is like playing chess.  It's not your current move that really matters, it's the move 6 turns away that you're setting yourself up for.  So I guess me toiling away at work to free myself of bills is my first move.  Vitamins and working out are my next.  Third move?  Read more.  A LOT more.

In a few years, I'm gonna have the whole fucking world in checkmate.